To the left or to the right?

Quite confused now....I wanted to do something monumental this morning and made preparations today for it..... spent 3 hours with auntie to make it but suddenly the evening changed everything, now I need to rethink everything.

I am getting tired to be honest. I just want to be myself. I just hope the following does not happen to you:

后来我总算学会了如何去爱
可惜你早已远去消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人一旦错过就不再

I suddenly feel very pitiful for you, for me and for others.

Somtimes opportunities just slip you by in life when you do not grasp it.

Out of sight, out of mind.